went to the IIMB student general body meeting today hoping to raise some dhamaakedaar issues. Before going i had drummed up support from people so that i wouldn’t be a spearman poking at an elephant. Then just before the meeting I was told that the support was being withdrawn. Kept quiet.
Now i’m pissed with myself for not raising the issue which i consider slightly important. Why is it that I keep allowing the rebel in me to get suppressed by the “saner” side? And then regret it? Why is it that I am frequently overcome by bouts of enthulessness? Why is it that the most hifunda of my plans generally never take off? Is it something wrong with me? Or is it that what I consider great is not that great after all? Or is it just that I’m actually doing the right thing and regretting about nothing?